I hope I have no more tears left for today. I miss my girl so much...
To distract my mind I have decided to give all the floors a good scrub and wax and so I have moved all the furniture through the house. The coffee table was incredibly heavy, but I think this might be because I have not been able to eat since Caya died. I will just leave the table there until Robert gets home, so he can move it right back....I know what he will say...Honey, what have you been up to now??? The thing is...he'll have to get the furniture back, because I have sort of made a pile of it, so no dinner until everything is back in place :)
When Amor and Cino died I was so lucky to still have Caya. This is harder, because I have no dog left this time.... My husband said to not take another dog for at least a year or so, but 6 hours later he all of a sudden said he did not know if he wanted to have a house and no dog to share it with. For me it is difficult....I think I just miss Caya, not so much a dog, if you understand what I mean. She was such a part of me.
Tomorrow I will be back to work. I still feel the same even with the sadness of now. I still am raring to go on new designs. I just think I should not work today, because I am scared the little cute raccoon might look sad if I airbrush him now :)
To distract my mind I have decided to give all the floors a good scrub and wax and so I have moved all the furniture through the house. The coffee table was incredibly heavy, but I think this might be because I have not been able to eat since Caya died. I will just leave the table there until Robert gets home, so he can move it right back....I know what he will say...Honey, what have you been up to now??? The thing is...he'll have to get the furniture back, because I have sort of made a pile of it, so no dinner until everything is back in place :)
When Amor and Cino died I was so lucky to still have Caya. This is harder, because I have no dog left this time.... My husband said to not take another dog for at least a year or so, but 6 hours later he all of a sudden said he did not know if he wanted to have a house and no dog to share it with. For me it is difficult....I think I just miss Caya, not so much a dog, if you understand what I mean. She was such a part of me.
Tomorrow I will be back to work. I still feel the same even with the sadness of now. I still am raring to go on new designs. I just think I should not work today, because I am scared the little cute raccoon might look sad if I airbrush him now :)
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Ellen, we said that, too, when we lost our last 3 dogs all in the same year..."we'll wait a couple of years." We ended up getting Maisie several months before Harley passed. You're right, it does heal your heart to have another puppy in the house.
You will love another puppy one day and because you do, it doesn't mean that you've forgotten Caya for she'll always be in your heart. You will honor Caya's memory by giving your heart to another puppy.
I know the pain you must be feeling...like your heart will never heal. You'll never forget Caya but when you're ready, you'll have room in your heart for another puppy and that little pup will help you heal.
Big hugs...Marlys
Posted by: Marlys | July 09, 2009 at 05:36 PM
Ellen, my deepest sympathies. I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of your little Caya. It's awfully painful to lose such a beloved friend. She will always live on in your heart but some advice from my dear friend in Houston, there is nothing like a new baby to heal the soul.
Pat xx
Posted by: Pat | July 09, 2009 at 08:31 PM